Congrats. You have displayed every failure in your entire life on a message board on the world wide web--for what reason? I haven't a CLUE.

But, your problems are MUCH deeper than anything that anyone here could BEGIN to touch.

I got as far as you calling your sperm donor a male pig, then I read as far as your sentence saying you abandoned her to him. Way to go.

Are you making this up as you go along?

Start with mental health---for YOU. If--and I do mean IF they let you out, THEN consider an attorney.

You are a terrifying woman. Get help.